Song: The Falala Song - Jack & Rai
Mood: Apprehensive



It's been a good two weeks at school so far. I am LOVING the fact we only have 4 days of school each week, my weekends starting a day earlier and lasting for three days ^^

will do a proper post once I have my priorities straight. yeap I kind of got distracted.

Labels: dailies

Song: Femme Fatale - Emilie Simon
Mood: Nonchalant

Shifting places,
need something new.
Familiar faces,
none of which are true. 

Classroom daze.
Murmurs all around.
Brain's a haze,
can't find your ground.

- written today, in commemoration of the first day of school. As you can probably tell, negativity is overpowering and overwhelming.

Insane, unfathomable rant coming up.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Some feelings in my life, even though they seem real at that moment it happened, those feelings feel like a dream afterwards. I've learned to push those feelings deep into the corners of my otherwise dusty mind just because I know it will might never happen again, those feelings will never resurface again because those moments happen only ONCE in my entire lifetime.

I push everything away, I don't know if it's because I don't want to disappoint myself when my expectations aren't met, or it's because it's just better this way. The past should stay where it belongs, the past. No spilling over the pages of today and tomorrow... I don't know. I really don't.

I think you're part of my past now. Thank you for having been part of my life for that point in time. But I guess some people can't see the fact I've slipped away from what used to be and I'm not exactly interested to go through what I felt the last few hours of that point in my life. If you get my drift. Rage, envy and utter disappointment. But who would know right?

Who would.

Labels: dailies, poem

Song: Anything But Ordinary - Avril Lavigne
Mood: HIGHLY THRILLED FOR SCHOOL





I've got a new meaning to this word, other than the usual 12-hour shifts on my com + week + sleep in till late kind of holidays. yes imma pig sue me.

Sincerely speaking, the past 3 4 5 6 weeks have been one hell of a roller-coaster ride that I really enjoyed. Even the dips, the thrilling dips, that just brings the ride back up to the highest point again. I mean, the highest points won't be high without the lowest points right? (:

I did crazy things I would never have had done last holidays (ok I don't know if it's because I turned legal or because I needed to shake things off) but I did and damn, hahah it was fun. The nights out, the new experiences, all those feelings and thoughts that felt so alive. So alive to the point I can still hardly believe that it is so different compared to the me during school (but hey everyone's like that in school too)

The break, it was definitely NOT a well-deserved break for me. It was more of I needed it. I needed to get away from people, I needed to get away from everything school related and even when the results came in, I was like 'LOL ENLIGHTEN ME HUMANS OF EARTH WHAT IS THIS STRANGE SCHOOL THINGY YOU ALL SPEAK OF' And maybe that's why I went mad.

And can I just say, the madness was absolutely worth it. No regrets. I have a ~feel good~ tingling gut feeling about this new semester. I actually can't wait for school!!!

OMG YES I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL

Happy first day of school!
-

Labels: dailies, poem

Song: Who Knows - Avril Lavigne
Mood: Cheerful/ Relaxed



And so yesterday, we went to Legoland! After an intensive week with the amazing Mr Peter O'connor, this was a highly well deserved break that I was really looking forward to!

Had to reach Newton Centre by 6:45 am and I was really really excited, I couldn't sleep! I reached Newton mrt at around 6:15 am? HAHA YES OTOT GURL RIGHT HERE. The other three were late, especially Tiara! Damn epic.

Dian to Tiara on the phone: Tiara! Hurry up run! We're about to leave on the bus! (when in fact we were still waiting for her at the queue for the tickets, to me and fatin: dian winked)

So when Tiara finally reached, her first words 'I think I lost 10kg from running just now!' HAHAHAH WTF EVEN Kekek ah this girl.

So these were my homies for the day, Dian, Tiara and Fatin!




(my face has gotten fatter) ok so anw first place to go was breakfast at some place somewhere, this is irrelevant! Then we headed to Legoland!

When I saw the Legoland sign on the hill, I immediately went "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh" non-stop. Yes I was that high. And to top it all off, our tour guide told us we had from 10am till 3:30 pm at Legoland!! FIVE FUCKING HOURS ALL TO OURSELVES FUCKING GENIUS AND FUN

First stop was obviously the Legoland entrance where I pretended I owned the queues and took non-ending jumpshots. The worst part about being a good photographer is that people can't take photos as nicely as you do when you take photos of other people. Did that make sense? So when Tiara finally captured a good jumpshot of me, I was elated! By the way, can I just mention, here is a bunch of 18 - 22 year olds screaming like little kids in Legoland yeap.

In the map that was given to us, Legoland seemed ginormous! We couldn't possibly finish the entire course in five hours ): But when we stepped in..... Nah it's not thaaaat huge. (But we still didn't manage to finish it)

So we started off to the left of the entrance, but before that.... the toilet! AND BOY OH BOY WAS I HIGHLY IMPRESSED. They have aircon in the toilets! WOAAAAAOWWWW WHAT EVEN IS THIS REAL LIFE THEY DON'T HAVE AIRCON IN SG TOILETS. THEY HAVE JUST MILDLY COOLING CEILING FANS (I'm exaggerating they do have aircons just not as strong as the ones in Legoland!) We stayed in the toilet for a good 15-20 minutes, me and Dian taking mugshots and mirror shots and what not, while Fatin and Tiara adjusted their hijabs. After a while of wating for F and T, we were out back, once again basking in the blazing hot sun.

On the arrival for the first ride on the left, waiting time was approximately 45 minutes, so we were all like 'Fuck this shit' and I told them the theory of taking the rides in the middle of the themepark first heh So we went to the second ride instead and thankfully the waiting time wasn't that bad. But the person manning the ride was a bitch, she didn't let us sit in the first row so me and Dian had this 'I am so not thrilled face well fuck you all' face on the ride all the way. Meh wasn't as good as I wanted it to be anw

Then we ran to the higher version of this ride, and good lord, wow. Just waow! First off, there was literally NO queue at all. Plus this time, the lady manning the ride was super diduper nice!!! She let us wait for the next ride to take the first seats! HEHE AND AND she complimented me on my hair! hehe thanks!!! First time on the ride, I was so worried for Fatin ): She screamed so scarily and she had this 'OMG I AM GONNA DIE I AM FUCKING TERRIFIED' look on her face that I couldn't fully enjoy the ride..... ): but me and dian took a second round, so everything's good hahahaha

Next was 4D theatre I think? Uhm not as wow as I thought it should be, plus waiting time was like a mega bitch. And the storyline was shit. How can the lazy jerk finally win and get the girl? Seriously, it didn't even have a decent storyline. Meh MEH. Wanted to kope the specs, but well my good side told me 'it will just rot at home' hahahaha so I didn't.

The ride after this one was the best, imo. It's this ride where you sit in pairs and climb up to the top by tugging on a rope! So apparently, all 4 of us got our own seats and so our challenge was to see who can get up the fastest. So when the ride finally went up, GUESS WHO WON. ME YES ME. But I let go a bit and went back up, and Tiara was like 'OH MY GOD I WON' So uhm without thinking I went 'FUCK YOU I WON BITCH'..... in front of all the little kids. Yeap. 'Fuck you' in front of the kids. I am such an amazing role model. The parents were probably like 'oh my god! That awful teenager spouting such vulgarities in front of the innocent children!!!!!' I am sorry to all, this is my competitive side coming out ):

BUT IT WAS FUN AND FUCK YOU TIARA I WAS FIRST.

NEVER EVER EAT AT LEGOLAND. BUY YOUR OWN FOOD PLS. THE CROWD IS DISGUSTING.

But I managed to make friends with a Singaporean lady whom I probably will never see again?

Next ride was the first ride we missed. Wanted to take the wet ride, but the queue was stupid. Who the fuck's gonna wait 45 minutes for one ride when we only have like 1 1/2 hours left!!!! Took the this ride twice but we didn't get to explore the other side of Legoland cause we had 30 minutes left after that, so we settled with some phototaking at the heart of Legoland, the main attraction. :)

Wanted to buy souvenirs, but uhm everything there is so fucking ex so I was like what even no I'm not buying these overpriced Legos so I didn't get anything. But hey pictures were memories enough ;)

Chocolate factory was a huge disappointment. I thought it was gonna be a big biiiiiig factory showing us all the processes and whatnot but it turned to be a mini explanation behind a mini counter with a mini machine. Wow, so exciting -.-

BUT... Steamboat made up for that disappointment! Cause it was like 20RM for a person each, for the buffet! And the food was like wow so many choices!!!!! Me and Dian went to take round one, and then Fatin and Tiara took a the second round. So much food, so little time hahahah so bloody epic. We were literally trying to finish up all the food we took in the last 15 minutes, so all you can see from us are mouth chewing and no one's talking at all. Did I mention the tom yam soup was so delicious? I drowned everything I cooked in it hahahaha cause I can.

Bus back to causeway was hilarious. You see, cause Tiara puked in this plastic bag, she was just holding it around. And then she started swinging it to Dian and to Fatin, and back again. LOL thank god I was just sitting far from her, I would have screamed HAHAHA but yah it was damn epic! I bet she's the only person I know so far who could have made puking look funny and good. (I still have a phobia to vomiting though, so I'm still not gonna try anything)

Traveling aside, I finally got home and the first thing my dad asked me was 'Why are you home? I thought you not coming back tonight?' Well thanks dad.

But all in all, it was still an amazing day out. First time overseas with friends/cousin, without parents! I felt so free! But the only restriction was money, bleh. I saw this kid buying loads of souvenirs, because his mom was there. Well fuck you hahahaha Imma buy the whole store when I grow up ass.

Other photos are with Dian and Fatin, I have only like those 6 photos in my phone because I was lazy to take photos w ze iPhone lol ok bye night everybody!

Labels: best girls, days out

Song: The Falala Song - Jack & Rai
Mood: Apprehensive



It's been a good two weeks at school so far. I am LOVING the fact we only have 4 days of school each week, my weekends starting a day earlier and lasting for three days ^^

will do a proper post once I have my priorities straight. yeap I kind of got distracted.

Labels: dailies

Song: Femme Fatale - Emilie Simon
Mood: Nonchalant

Shifting places,
need something new.
Familiar faces,
none of which are true. 

Classroom daze.
Murmurs all around.
Brain's a haze,
can't find your ground.

- written today, in commemoration of the first day of school. As you can probably tell, negativity is overpowering and overwhelming.

Insane, unfathomable rant coming up.

YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

Some feelings in my life, even though they seem real at that moment it happened, those feelings feel like a dream afterwards. I've learned to push those feelings deep into the corners of my otherwise dusty mind just because I know it will might never happen again, those feelings will never resurface again because those moments happen only ONCE in my entire lifetime.

I push everything away, I don't know if it's because I don't want to disappoint myself when my expectations aren't met, or it's because it's just better this way. The past should stay where it belongs, the past. No spilling over the pages of today and tomorrow... I don't know. I really don't.

I think you're part of my past now. Thank you for having been part of my life for that point in time. But I guess some people can't see the fact I've slipped away from what used to be and I'm not exactly interested to go through what I felt the last few hours of that point in my life. If you get my drift. Rage, envy and utter disappointment. But who would know right?

Who would.

Labels: dailies, poem

Song: Anything But Ordinary - Avril Lavigne
Mood: HIGHLY THRILLED FOR SCHOOL





I've got a new meaning to this word, other than the usual 12-hour shifts on my com + week + sleep in till late kind of holidays. yes imma pig sue me.

Sincerely speaking, the past 3 4 5 6 weeks have been one hell of a roller-coaster ride that I really enjoyed. Even the dips, the thrilling dips, that just brings the ride back up to the highest point again. I mean, the highest points won't be high without the lowest points right? (:

I did crazy things I would never have had done last holidays (ok I don't know if it's because I turned legal or because I needed to shake things off) but I did and damn, hahah it was fun. The nights out, the new experiences, all those feelings and thoughts that felt so alive. So alive to the point I can still hardly believe that it is so different compared to the me during school (but hey everyone's like that in school too)

The break, it was definitely NOT a well-deserved break for me. It was more of I needed it. I needed to get away from people, I needed to get away from everything school related and even when the results came in, I was like 'LOL ENLIGHTEN ME HUMANS OF EARTH WHAT IS THIS STRANGE SCHOOL THINGY YOU ALL SPEAK OF' And maybe that's why I went mad.

And can I just say, the madness was absolutely worth it. No regrets. I have a ~feel good~ tingling gut feeling about this new semester. I actually can't wait for school!!!

OMG YES I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL

Happy first day of school!
-

Labels: dailies, poem

Song: Who Knows - Avril Lavigne
Mood: Cheerful/ Relaxed



And so yesterday, we went to Legoland! After an intensive week with the amazing Mr Peter O'connor, this was a highly well deserved break that I was really looking forward to!

Had to reach Newton Centre by 6:45 am and I was really really excited, I couldn't sleep! I reached Newton mrt at around 6:15 am? HAHA YES OTOT GURL RIGHT HERE. The other three were late, especially Tiara! Damn epic.

Dian to Tiara on the phone: Tiara! Hurry up run! We're about to leave on the bus! (when in fact we were still waiting for her at the queue for the tickets, to me and fatin: dian winked)

So when Tiara finally reached, her first words 'I think I lost 10kg from running just now!' HAHAHAH WTF EVEN Kekek ah this girl.

So these were my homies for the day, Dian, Tiara and Fatin!




(my face has gotten fatter) ok so anw first place to go was breakfast at some place somewhere, this is irrelevant! Then we headed to Legoland!

When I saw the Legoland sign on the hill, I immediately went "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh" non-stop. Yes I was that high. And to top it all off, our tour guide told us we had from 10am till 3:30 pm at Legoland!! FIVE FUCKING HOURS ALL TO OURSELVES FUCKING GENIUS AND FUN

First stop was obviously the Legoland entrance where I pretended I owned the queues and took non-ending jumpshots. The worst part about being a good photographer is that people can't take photos as nicely as you do when you take photos of other people. Did that make sense? So when Tiara finally captured a good jumpshot of me, I was elated! By the way, can I just mention, here is a bunch of 18 - 22 year olds screaming like little kids in Legoland yeap.

In the map that was given to us, Legoland seemed ginormous! We couldn't possibly finish the entire course in five hours ): But when we stepped in..... Nah it's not thaaaat huge. (But we still didn't manage to finish it)

So we started off to the left of the entrance, but before that.... the toilet! AND BOY OH BOY WAS I HIGHLY IMPRESSED. They have aircon in the toilets! WOAAAAAOWWWW WHAT EVEN IS THIS REAL LIFE THEY DON'T HAVE AIRCON IN SG TOILETS. THEY HAVE JUST MILDLY COOLING CEILING FANS (I'm exaggerating they do have aircons just not as strong as the ones in Legoland!) We stayed in the toilet for a good 15-20 minutes, me and Dian taking mugshots and mirror shots and what not, while Fatin and Tiara adjusted their hijabs. After a while of wating for F and T, we were out back, once again basking in the blazing hot sun.

On the arrival for the first ride on the left, waiting time was approximately 45 minutes, so we were all like 'Fuck this shit' and I told them the theory of taking the rides in the middle of the themepark first heh So we went to the second ride instead and thankfully the waiting time wasn't that bad. But the person manning the ride was a bitch, she didn't let us sit in the first row so me and Dian had this 'I am so not thrilled face well fuck you all' face on the ride all the way. Meh wasn't as good as I wanted it to be anw

Then we ran to the higher version of this ride, and good lord, wow. Just waow! First off, there was literally NO queue at all. Plus this time, the lady manning the ride was super diduper nice!!! She let us wait for the next ride to take the first seats! HEHE AND AND she complimented me on my hair! hehe thanks!!! First time on the ride, I was so worried for Fatin ): She screamed so scarily and she had this 'OMG I AM GONNA DIE I AM FUCKING TERRIFIED' look on her face that I couldn't fully enjoy the ride..... ): but me and dian took a second round, so everything's good hahahaha

Next was 4D theatre I think? Uhm not as wow as I thought it should be, plus waiting time was like a mega bitch. And the storyline was shit. How can the lazy jerk finally win and get the girl? Seriously, it didn't even have a decent storyline. Meh MEH. Wanted to kope the specs, but well my good side told me 'it will just rot at home' hahahaha so I didn't.

The ride after this one was the best, imo. It's this ride where you sit in pairs and climb up to the top by tugging on a rope! So apparently, all 4 of us got our own seats and so our challenge was to see who can get up the fastest. So when the ride finally went up, GUESS WHO WON. ME YES ME. But I let go a bit and went back up, and Tiara was like 'OH MY GOD I WON' So uhm without thinking I went 'FUCK YOU I WON BITCH'..... in front of all the little kids. Yeap. 'Fuck you' in front of the kids. I am such an amazing role model. The parents were probably like 'oh my god! That awful teenager spouting such vulgarities in front of the innocent children!!!!!' I am sorry to all, this is my competitive side coming out ):

BUT IT WAS FUN AND FUCK YOU TIARA I WAS FIRST.

NEVER EVER EAT AT LEGOLAND. BUY YOUR OWN FOOD PLS. THE CROWD IS DISGUSTING.

But I managed to make friends with a Singaporean lady whom I probably will never see again?

Next ride was the first ride we missed. Wanted to take the wet ride, but the queue was stupid. Who the fuck's gonna wait 45 minutes for one ride when we only have like 1 1/2 hours left!!!! Took the this ride twice but we didn't get to explore the other side of Legoland cause we had 30 minutes left after that, so we settled with some phototaking at the heart of Legoland, the main attraction. :)

Wanted to buy souvenirs, but uhm everything there is so fucking ex so I was like what even no I'm not buying these overpriced Legos so I didn't get anything. But hey pictures were memories enough ;)

Chocolate factory was a huge disappointment. I thought it was gonna be a big biiiiiig factory showing us all the processes and whatnot but it turned to be a mini explanation behind a mini counter with a mini machine. Wow, so exciting -.-

BUT... Steamboat made up for that disappointment! Cause it was like 20RM for a person each, for the buffet! And the food was like wow so many choices!!!!! Me and Dian went to take round one, and then Fatin and Tiara took a the second round. So much food, so little time hahahah so bloody epic. We were literally trying to finish up all the food we took in the last 15 minutes, so all you can see from us are mouth chewing and no one's talking at all. Did I mention the tom yam soup was so delicious? I drowned everything I cooked in it hahahaha cause I can.

Bus back to causeway was hilarious. You see, cause Tiara puked in this plastic bag, she was just holding it around. And then she started swinging it to Dian and to Fatin, and back again. LOL thank god I was just sitting far from her, I would have screamed HAHAHA but yah it was damn epic! I bet she's the only person I know so far who could have made puking look funny and good. (I still have a phobia to vomiting though, so I'm still not gonna try anything)

Traveling aside, I finally got home and the first thing my dad asked me was 'Why are you home? I thought you not coming back tonight?' Well thanks dad.

But all in all, it was still an amazing day out. First time overseas with friends/cousin, without parents! I felt so free! But the only restriction was money, bleh. I saw this kid buying loads of souvenirs, because his mom was there. Well fuck you hahahaha Imma buy the whole store when I grow up ass.

Other photos are with Dian and Fatin, I have only like those 6 photos in my phone because I was lazy to take photos w ze iPhone lol ok bye night everybody!

Labels: best girls, days out