tales| protagonist| intermission
And may you have a good day too, sire.
I do not like to take care of drunk people.
The end.
Heart drums
Melancholic sounds
The heart hums
The faces frown
Daily routines
Takes its toll
Lost my footing
Nothing to hold
"Endless possibilities,"
is what they exclaimed
But stuck in here
I can't be saved
One step, two
It's not working
Right or left, choose
Will this be worth it?
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I've not been feeling entirely well just quite recently. Everything seems disoriented and unsettling. I've been trying to hold it in and calm myself down, it's working but I am reaching my limit. I can actually feel it. I can't ignore these situations anymore, but I know I have no strength to deal with them either.
Everything I've worked for, will cease to exist. Sooner or later, and the reality of that is hard to grasp. I'm grappling, trying to stay onto what seems to be a decent, non-chaotic life, a simple one but no, it just won't work out that way.
I will pull through again, right?
Yup, I'll just delude myself into thinking I am going to survive another bout of drama while a small part of me just rots away with the mild catastrophe of these events.
Was checking out some recommendations by a friend and I found this, and honestly this was.... listen to it for yourself.
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And so if anyone has been wondering about me, (if anyone even reads this blog tbh), or about I've been up to, well I've been working.
After my stint at a student care at internship, I realised maybe my calling is to work with children. Even though, back when slightly younger and naive, I vehemently objected to any mentions or interactions with this babbling tiny creatures, but hey actually, they're not so bad after all. Consequently, it turns out that I was able to handle children better than I expected to. I've gotta thank my internship supervisor for being the wonderful guide she had been to me, for letting us learn the ropes of managing children through her teaching methods as well as giving us the right amount of freedom to exercise our skills with the children. Maybe because of her I learnt how to enjoy working with children, and would love to pursue this interest. So thank you, once again.
Anyway, I've been thinking that I should pursue a degree related to children - child psychology, early childhood education. But the problem is, I can't find a degree that would allow me to take credits off with the diploma I just graduated from, and my GPA is not that fabulous to get into a direct psychology degree in Singapore (see aki, this is why you should have studied better but no use preaching now right). My boss has offered to sponsor me a diploma in early childhood but I don't see a point because I already do have a diploma that somewhat correlates to childhood education. I mean I did cover lifespan psychology and story drama and both made me have to work with children.
Though sponsorship or not, I will still take a gap year, to fully indulge my wanderlust (tumblr word yes i know don't judge) and prepare myself for the adulthood that will pounce on me once I start university.
And I used to think "wow I can't wait to get older" why
Okay in my previous post, my last sentence was "I WANNA GO TO KOREA"........ Guess who's going to Korea now hahahaha no words can perfectly contain the thrill and excitement I am feeling towards this trip!
Labels: best girls, Travels