tales| protagonist| intermission
And may you have a good day too, sire.
A while ago, on a night out, I realised that what had happened in the past, every single life changing incident, doesn't necessarily have to affect the thoughts and choices I make today, and I think that's a really positive change in my mindset for my current and future selves.
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D-6 to Korea, and it is surreallllll to think that this time next week, I would be back in the hostel from strolling down Haeundae beach with two wonderful people, with cozy jackets on and our feet digging into the sand. The thought of it gives me such joy and thrill.
Close my eyes, open them
I've just done graduation
Close my eyes and open them again
I'm on vacation
Thrice, closed and open
I'm back under pressure
Life's such. Especially life here. But yknow, let's live in thr moment, shall we?
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I'll be updating more often with my trip coming up!!! Here's to less empty blogs and more interesting stories /clink
I do not like to take care of drunk people.
The end.
Heart drums
Melancholic sounds
The heart hums
The faces frown
Daily routines
Takes its toll
Lost my footing
Nothing to hold
"Endless possibilities,"
is what they exclaimed
But stuck in here
I can't be saved
One step, two
It's not working
Right or left, choose
Will this be worth it?
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I've not been feeling entirely well just quite recently. Everything seems disoriented and unsettling. I've been trying to hold it in and calm myself down, it's working but I am reaching my limit. I can actually feel it. I can't ignore these situations anymore, but I know I have no strength to deal with them either.
Everything I've worked for, will cease to exist. Sooner or later, and the reality of that is hard to grasp. I'm grappling, trying to stay onto what seems to be a decent, non-chaotic life, a simple one but no, it just won't work out that way.
I will pull through again, right?
Yup, I'll just delude myself into thinking I am going to survive another bout of drama while a small part of me just rots away with the mild catastrophe of these events.
Was checking out some recommendations by a friend and I found this, and honestly this was.... listen to it for yourself.
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And so if anyone has been wondering about me, (if anyone even reads this blog tbh), or about I've been up to, well I've been working.
After my stint at a student care at internship, I realised maybe my calling is to work with children. Even though, back when slightly younger and naive, I vehemently objected to any mentions or interactions with this babbling tiny creatures, but hey actually, they're not so bad after all. Consequently, it turns out that I was able to handle children better than I expected to. I've gotta thank my internship supervisor for being the wonderful guide she had been to me, for letting us learn the ropes of managing children through her teaching methods as well as giving us the right amount of freedom to exercise our skills with the children. Maybe because of her I learnt how to enjoy working with children, and would love to pursue this interest. So thank you, once again.
Anyway, I've been thinking that I should pursue a degree related to children - child psychology, early childhood education. But the problem is, I can't find a degree that would allow me to take credits off with the diploma I just graduated from, and my GPA is not that fabulous to get into a direct psychology degree in Singapore (see aki, this is why you should have studied better but no use preaching now right). My boss has offered to sponsor me a diploma in early childhood but I don't see a point because I already do have a diploma that somewhat correlates to childhood education. I mean I did cover lifespan psychology and story drama and both made me have to work with children.
Though sponsorship or not, I will still take a gap year, to fully indulge my wanderlust (tumblr word yes i know don't judge) and prepare myself for the adulthood that will pounce on me once I start university.
And I used to think "wow I can't wait to get older" why
Okay in my previous post, my last sentence was "I WANNA GO TO KOREA"........ Guess who's going to Korea now hahahaha no words can perfectly contain the thrill and excitement I am feeling towards this trip!
Labels: best girls, Travels
"Come Back Home
Can you come back home?
차가운 세상 끝에 날
버리지 말고 내 곁으로"
- Come Back Home (Unplugged)
This song's been stuck in my head since it came out and honestly, it's the only song I liked from 2NE1's latest album, Crush, that dropped on CL's birthday a week ago. The rest are an extensive mix of heavy beat music, techno, electro, dubstep, pop? I think those are the genres they infused in the latest album which is not really my kind of music, so I didn't dig them. But several songs are pretty catchy after approximately 5 listens, like Happy.... which reminds me.
Happy reminds me so much of Sunset Glow (my all time number favourite Big Bang song EVER), because the music's really happy and light, but the meaning of the song itself. The emotions the lyrics portray, they are so sad, so so so so sad. Look:
Let's start off with Sunset Glow (yes this is Big Bang before most people knew them from Fantastic Baby):
And this is 2NE1's Happy (can't find the lyrics MV version so here's the lyrics and music but if you want the MV it's here):
My first post back to blogging is about Kmusic hahahahahahahaha but honestly I only follow BAP and 2NE1 now, it's not even that hard to understand where I am going to cause these groups are amazing. And I used to blog extensively about K music, it's not so bad now (I refuse to refer to them as kpop bc I don't like pop tbh it's just music right, korean music shouldn't be generalised as korean pop music psht)
I WANNA GO KOREA ):
(actually, to be honest, I am just keeping this blog so that when I go overseas, I can post all my posts here, but I don't want it to be dead yknow. Like I want some consistency.... ?... consistent posts every month so it doesn't look bare and all, and I don't really care if anyone reads my blog (okay maybe i do but no one will cause honestly it's not even remotely interesting even i get bored with my posts) but it's just for me for when I grow up and I laugh at myself at how stupid I was or how stupid I'll ever be but hey in all good fun, at least I am gonna mature... i think. Or even I'm not, my friends and family will tell me. YOU WILL WONT YOU. and omg look a bracket in a bracket!!! In case you don't understand this is supposed to be a whisper kind of post to fathom my incoherence /hints to previous post/ but this post itself is starting to become kind of redundant to the incoherence I've been trying to avoid)
WHY DO I TYPE SO FAST WHEN I BLOG AND TYPE SO SLOW WHEN I DO MY ESSAYS
Labels: I don't understand either